Rich White Girl Syndrome

I opened my mailbox to discover about three or four negative e-mails. That's some kind of fucking record. Most people don't care anything about my site because the patriarchy has brainwashed them into thinking people like me should ignored. The beautiful part, though, is that they're over something I don't give a damn about. That's why I wrote about it. It's the beauty of nothingness. I feel nothing for her site, so I wrote about it. It's deep. You don't get it because the patriarchy won't let you get it. I'm a green-haired lesbian (hi, Kali!) and you're already prejudiced against me.

Something I wrote in this journal about some stupid website worth no one's time. Not even mine, which is why I wrote about it. I'm not sure what else to say about them, other then they're capitalist elitist swine. I've gotten letters from people calling my views "immature" because I discussed punks and capitalism. FUCKING NEWSFLASH: I was a goddamned freshman in high school when I started this website, which gives me an excuse to be an idiot. I probably should have removed the older writings once I graduated, but I stand by all of my work, even if it makes no sense.

I don't know what else to say about any of it. I don't want pseudo-intellectual conservative hardasses coming to my website. That wasn't my goal in writing my journal yesterday. I put my thoughts on the World Wide Web, which millions of people around the world can access, and non-green-haired lesbians had the nerve to read my non-password-protected site! THE NERVE! THE AUDACITY! What is the world coming to when a rich, green-haired lesbian can't complain about elitists, without those Harvard-educated pricks responding?

I didn't even want to write about that shit website but I had nothing else to say. Not even any tips about pussy licking. I don't know what else to write. That's because the patriarchy won't give me any rights. They cloud my creativity with their patriarchal mind control. That Misanthropic Bitch is one of the patriarchy's minions. She's a middle-class moron. I bet she goes to Harvard because she's smart and has a big vocabulary. Stupid elitists. Stupid elitists with unique writing styles get more hits than my page of insipid, uninspired poetry. I bet if Walt Whitman -- that white, patriarchal fag, because even the fags are part of the patriarchy! -- wrote those poems, they'd be in an anthology by now.

All I know is that it's amazing what comes out of the woodwork when you decide to say what's on your mind, like when I wrote about that bitch's site.

The bastards, the assholes with harvard educations who think they know everything. The kind of people I've gone to great lengths to rid from my life... now, I just spew out some shit for my daily journal and suddenly they've infested my website. Those damn Harvard people! What were they thinking, with their hoity-toity GRE scores, large vocabulary, and appreciation of the arts? Fucking elitist fucks. Cracka-ass crackas. Missionary position shits.

And it's funny: I thought the worst consequence of posting my journal yesterday would be giving that stupid site hits, even though I only get 2 hits a day. Who cares about my life? I'm a dirty little lesbian, right? I don't count. But one person actually signed my guestbook saying something about my writing being a "comma-filled mess" and claimed they actually got here from that wretched place.

I have no idea. Or is it really possible that I could've slighted the Heather Locklear of the internet? I don't understand why she's the Heather Locklear of the internet, but I'm a trendy lesbian, so I have to get at least one pop culture reference in.

The one who spews shit about "niggers" and "(some derrogative phrase I can't remember) jews". What's satire? Or irony? I hear the British like it, but the British are classists. They support a caste system. Only people who are part of the Lucky Sperm Club can succeed. Down with satire and irony because elitists employ it to oppress people like me.

Nah, I think I accidentally pissed off the neo-nazis (yeah, with harvard educations. They're called your average middle-class morons who think they're intelligent because they went to good public schools. myopic, self-righteous bastards...). I'm rich. I'm so rich, I think there are good public schools. My daddy left me a trust fund. I used to drive around in a convertible with a rail-thin girl who owned cool sunglasses. I accuse middle-class morons of being middle-class morons because only the middle-class are morons. They work real hard for what they have, and then the government takes it and gives it away in the form of social and corporate welfare to the rich and poor. They're so stupid. Stupid middle-class morons. They're so myopic. Maybe if they were richer, they could get LASIK surgery, and they wouldn't be myopic anymore!

I found out that most of the asses who wrote me were actually directly affiliated with that stupid shit website. So it looks like even web-celebs are fucking pathetic. Okay, so she she doesn't make any money from her site and Wired hasn't done a story on her, and she hasn't gone public with stock yet, but she's a web-celeb because no one visits my site and she gets so many visitors for her upper-class sniveling drivel. They come pick on little old me with a tiny 80-hits-a-day website when they're the fucking bigwigs. Okay, she doesn't even have her own domain name, and she doesn't even pay for being hosted, but she's a bigwig because she buys and spews the shit sold by the patriarchy. She's a pawn.

Assholes. I'm not sure what else to say about that. I'm just relieved that it wasn't my readers and that I wasn't doing anything to attract the wrong kind of people to this website, other than writing kick ass poetry. Oh, well, I'm not a white male or sellout white woman, so no one cares. I'm just a lesbian. Look at Ani Difranco. I totally relate to her music. She's so great. No one listens, though, because she's different and doesn't buy into the patriarchy. For my real enjoyment I turn to things with substance like Ani Difranco or Dar williams, or just real, plain, fuckin' life. I know real people with real lives don't keep journals or write poetry, but I need substance.

The worst thing I did was link that god-awful place. I just figured my visitors might want to see what I was talking about; I thought only about three people would click that link. In retrospect, though, I realize I shouldn't have linked it. It's a bullshit site already linked from everywhere--I believe I read it gets 60,000 hits. It's probably only closer to 3000 hits a day, but I have to exaggerate for dramatic effect. I'm a lesbian. You won't pay attention unless I exaggerate.

So it's the same principle I use in opting to go with "some day time talkshow" or whatever rather than "The Blankety Blank Show". Though sometimes I do mention shows by name. But most of the time I do make a decision to just go with something generic. I'm not going to advertise for assholes who are already getting more attention (and in most cases money for it) than they deserve. I bet she'll be real big on MTV someday.

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